working for healing

My last cyberknife is over....for now. I might be even more fatigued for a while, but will hopfully gain more strength back.
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I have more chemo tomorrow and will visit with the oncologist.

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Max's preschool graduation is tomorrow. It should be so cute to see.
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Lamentations 3:21-25, "Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.' The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him." (NIV)

this and that

Happy Memorial Day....a day late. I had a great time at a picnic with my friends.
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I have physical therapy today, and I have a cyberknife procedure for the next 3 days.

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My little Max and Ella are so sweet. This morning, as I was resting on the couch they both came up to me to give me kisses to start their day.
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Psalm 69:32, “The humble will see their God at work and be glad. Let all who seek God’s help be encouraged.’” (NLT)

All 3 down

All 3 of my cyberknife treatments are over for now. As I said before, I guess the radiation can make me tired.
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Apparently I've been having issues with "passing out" or "losing time" when I try to stand up. I'm not sure if it's due to fatigue, lack of food/sugar at the moment, or another seizure.

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My mom is here again....which has been great for us. She says her back is better.

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For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.
2nd Cor. 4:16 King James Version

2 down

Today I had my 2nd cyberknife procedure. Everything went much smoother as far as being able to lie there still for an hour. With my Ativan, it was quite relaxing. I have one more procedure tomorrow. Unfortunately the procedures seem to be making me weaker. Apparantly since this is radiation, it's normal for this to be happening.



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That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man; That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love. (Ephesians 3:16-17)

need joy, have joy

I hear a lot about how strong I am, but lately I can tell you that I've been nothing but weak, both physically and emotionally. I'm not sure why, but a lot has been making me cry lately. Sometimes there's a reason for it, sometimes the tears just come down for no reason.

My husband continues to be so wonderful, basically having to do everything for me.

We will continue with Cyberknife on Monday and Tuesday afternoon.

My kids, especially Ella when she tells me I'm bald, still make me giggle.

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If you can, said Jesus. Everything is possible for him who believes.

1 cyberknife down 2 to go.

My patience, and I'm sure my husband's persistance, has paid off. I was able to have the first part of my cyberknife procedure today. Lying in one spot for an hour was not fun, and although I could have taken a break, I just wanted the procedure to be done and without chance for error. I have two more hour long procedures next week. I'll have to update any progress then.
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My mom's back is still hurting. She's traveling back to Indiana this weekend to deal with some dental issues and spend time with my dad. Hopefully she can get some rest for her back while away from my kiddos.
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My platelets are back up, so that's good news.
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1 Peter 2:20 For what glory is it, if, when ye be buffeted for your faults, ye shall take it patiently? but if, when ye do well, and suffer for it, ye take it patiently, this is acceptable with God.

Happening Next Week

It appears that my Cyberknife procedure will be next week on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. We were hoping for this week, but we're just happy they can do the Cyberknife. It's an outpatient procedure, so I'm happy to get to come home.

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My mom hurt her back picking up Ella. Please pray for her healing.

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Romans 15:5 Now the God of patience and consolation grant you to be likeminded one toward another according to Christ Jesus:

Eph. 3:14-16: "For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;"

Trying the Cyberknife

Obviously a lot has happened in a week, and I'm sorry I have not updated that much. I'm still not able to walk. And I've been in and out of the hospital with blood and platelet transfusions. They also found a bloodclot in my leg. And if we get the okay from the doctors, we're going to try the Cyberknife procedure, while continuing with chemo.

And I have to take this time once again to thank God for marrying me to my very patient, smart, persistant, godly husband.

And my mom continues to be nothing but a saint.

Eph. 3:14-16: "For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;"