Writings of a teachermom, choosing to stay home with her kids, while loathing all domestic responsibilities! In late Aug. 2008, I was diagnosed with Triple Negative breast cancer. After surgery, chemo and radiation, I was given theall clear. However, in the late summer of 2008, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, which metasticized to other areas.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Running East

I've received a lot of gifts from people encouraging and praying for me. My Aunt Marianna and Uncle Keith sent me a framed copy of the poem below. I love it!

Today I Run East!
(A promise of HOPE)
By Barbara D. MacAdam

When I got the news, my world stood still. Like a breath in the twilight, tightly held through sheer will. So I’ve stayed in this dream state, suspended in time, where the past has not left and the future’s not mine.

Fear swells within me, and try as I might, I can’t stay where I am. I know I must fight. With a gasp my lungs burn, as I climb to my feet, but which way should I run—toward the West or toward the East?

The West holds my dreams & joys of my past. They are trapped in the sunset—how long would I last? I’d have to keep running just to stay in the light, but I’m growing so weary. I need help with this fight!

I rest my eyes briefly, lying prostrate due west, mourning precious time spent on this futile quest. The dark at my back, creeping forth from the East, holds the fear of the future like a stalking beast.

My heart has grown weary. My mind cannot cope. Shattered dreams slip through fingers—I’m losing all hope. Then a small voice recanted a promise I’d heard. “Come to Me all ye weary,” you can trust in My word.

It brought back a stirring of rekindled faith. I was flooded with HOPE and began to shake. What if I stood and faced down this beast—my fear of the unknown, that loomed in the East?

It then wouldn’t matter if I froze or I ran, for God’s earth has kept spinning since all time began. So I turned toward the darkness, no longer alone, and stepped in with arms reaching, as my soul searched for home.

And though the sun set behind me. I felt inner peace, for SUNRISE will soon meet me if,,,today I run East!

Tomorrow I get an MRI, Chemo, and meet with an oncologist.


Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

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At 10:32 PM, Blogger TJ said...

Beautiful. Such words of encouragement. I'm still praying for you.

At 6:54 AM, Blogger Jaye said...

That's a great poem! Thanks for sharing. Continual prayers go up for you.

Phil. 1:3 "I thank my God upon every remembrance of you"

At 7:39 AM, Blogger LH said...

Love it.

At 8:18 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

So beautiful! Brings tears to my eyes and a recogntion of where we all want to be ultimately heading. I will share this with others. Thanks!

KC's mom

At 9:45 AM, Blogger Angela's Kitchen said...

Thanks for sharing the poem, Cari. That is one of my favorite verses!

Love you!

At 11:42 AM, Blogger Ms.L said...

oooh my,that was so powerful!

At 6:02 PM, Blogger Andrea said...

What great words of hope. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.

At 6:59 PM, Blogger wiferhood said...

Those are poetic words for everyone who faces any life challenge. As I read it, I envisioned Jesus standing with His arms open with the sun rising behind Him.

We must keep running toward Him and fighting the good fight of faith. Teh battle is the Lord's the victory is won. We stand firm on His Word.

"We overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony." (Rev 12:11)

Big hugs and lots of love :~D


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