Mommy's halloween costume

WARNING: Picture with staples in my head at the bottom of this message. May not be for those with a queasy stomach.


I had my first chemo treatment into my head today. A little needle prick, but that was it for pain. Injecting the chemo took about 5 to 10 minutes to administer. I then had to go home and lie flat for a couple hours. There was concern about headaches, like one would get with a lumbar puncture. However, so far, no side effects. Praise God!


I still have all my other aches and pains, plus a few more that have developed recently. But we're praying that the chemo will help take those symptoms away...without taking away anymore of my brain function.

And as I look at this picture, I was thinking, hey, I'm going to have a scar of my initial "C" on my head. There are people who pay big money to have such scars made...oh, it's not like my surgery was cheap. I guess I'm more shocked that people CHOOSE to do crazy stuff like that....having letters carved into their body!
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He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, who abides in the shadow of the Almighty, will say to the Lord, My refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust.” Psalm 91:1-2

They're out

In all honesty, today has been a rather unsettling day. I'm not sure what to make of anything lately. I'd like to say it's the medication, but I was filled with nothing but anxiety this morning, and that was before I started taking any meds. Doing things like getting dressed and putting on makeup seemed incredibly overwhelming to me, and it scares me. I'm a jittery, nervous mess. And sometimes feel so overwhlemed I think I'm going to pass out.

On the good side, my staples are out. It hurt, but not as bad as I thought. Just toward the end a couple were a little stuck.

Now onto more important things.....like washing my hair!

I hope it stays together

Tomorrow I get my stitches out. ....I'm sorry, let me rephrase that. Tomorrow they pull these staples out of my head!

Despite everything that I've been through...I DO NOT DO PHYSICAL PAIN! Yeah, I know I've run a marathon and all...but I do that slow...it's not that painful for me. Now having sharp things pulled out of my head is making me want to vomit just thinking about it.

So tomorrow, at about 11AM, please think of me and send any kind of numbing powers through the air to my head. I know I will be in tears before they even begin. Can't they prescribe valium for something like this?

A few owies!

This WILL gross you out!

Surprisingly I'm only on Tylenol right now. I had to have some big doses of Percaset last night. But I'm feeling better today physically. Mentally and emotionally I'm still all over the place. But we're working it out. Please excuse my disjointed posts as I try to find my voice in all this.