Writings of a teachermom, choosing to stay home with her kids, while loathing all domestic responsibilities! In late Aug. 2008, I was diagnosed with Triple Negative breast cancer. After surgery, chemo and radiation, I was given theall clear. However, in the late summer of 2008, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, which metasticized to other areas.

Friday, August 29, 2008

They're out

In all honesty, today has been a rather unsettling day. I'm not sure what to make of anything lately. I'd like to say it's the medication, but I was filled with nothing but anxiety this morning, and that was before I started taking any meds. Doing things like getting dressed and putting on makeup seemed incredibly overwhelming to me, and it scares me. I'm a jittery, nervous mess. And sometimes feel so overwhlemed I think I'm going to pass out.

On the good side, my staples are out. It hurt, but not as bad as I thought. Just toward the end a couple were a little stuck.

Now onto more important things.....like washing my hair!

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At 4:44 PM, Anonymous Shannon Kopp said...

Hi Cari- My name is Shannon and I work with your husband at Maplewood Surgery Center. Sometimes I feel like his personal scrub on Wednesday's. HA!
Anyways I meant you once when you had Ella. I brought you a baby gift from the Surgery Center.
I asked Dr. Ashford if it was O.K. to walk in honor of you at the Breast Cancer 3-day walk. Of course he said YES! My husband and I are walking 60 miles this year and we will be wearing T-shirts all 3 days. These T-shirts have names of women who have survived and passed on from Breast Cancer.
So my husband and I will proudly wear your name and pray for a speedy recovery!!
Take care Shannon Kopp

At 5:11 PM, Blogger IrishMommy said...

Congratulations on another milestone. The staples are gone! I just read the comment from Melvin's co-workers and am considering doing the 3-day walk next year. Anyone else reading this comment interested? I believe the walk is Aug 21-23, 2008...

At 5:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Cari, Remember that when you are feeling anxious and overwhelmed, IT IS OKAY to feel that way!!! You are having those feelings for obvious reasons, and quite honestly, it seems like a very "normal" response. I have those feelings several times a day minus all of the extra added stressors that you are experiencing. Even with your positive attitude and tremendous faith, you are allowed to let your guard down and allow yourself to really "feel" and express what you are really feeling.(then go back to the positivity and faith)!! Good job on the staple removal and staying "in one piece". With love and prayer, Michelle

At 6:52 PM, Blogger Jumper 2.0 said...

It's the Dexamethasone! It will get better. Have you started to taper off it yet?
Trust me, I've seen Dex absolutely cause much worse problems. But you have to take it anyway to keep the swelling down. If you haven't started to taper it yet, call the doctor and tell them to get it started.

At 7:06 PM, Blogger Maddy said...

Gosh you'd think they'd at least use soluable ones! Or maybe they wanted to force you to go back for a check up?
Best wishes

At 9:58 PM, Blogger Fantastic Four said...

I would love to get together with others in the area and do the 3 day walk! Please count me in...

Cari, You have every right to feel the way you are feeling. It could very well be the "healing" process from the surgery or the drugs that are carrying over from day to day.

Please take care and I am sure you had to feel better after a head wash!


At 10:39 PM, Blogger AnnD said...

Hoping the rest of the day was a bit less anxious. I can only imagine. You have been hit by a lot in the past few weeks. I would expect you to feel overwhelmed, regardless of meds (for which I can't offer any sound advice other than too much caffeine makes me jittery!)

Remember two weeks ago, you were thinking about going back to work. Things change fast - let it catch up.

At 8:09 AM, Blogger Shannon said...

Yah! The staples are gone...
I hope the feelings you are going through begin to get better.
I continue to pray for your healing.

You are doing awesome!

At 8:57 AM, Blogger Andrea said...

That must be very frustrating. Hopefully they'll taper you off those meds soon.

Wow, look at all that hair! I'm sure it felt so good to wash it.

At 11:44 AM, Blogger KC said...

go easy on yourself, cari. you are doing great.

At 1:31 PM, Blogger Kimberly said...

Another hurdle jumped!! Bravo!!

Three cheers to Cari, whose bright spirit cannot be smothered by this nasty cancer!!

(And count me in on the 3-day, Shawn)

At 7:22 PM, Blogger Angela's Kitchen said...

Well, I heard 80's hair was coming back. You have a head start on "big bangs!" You are SO fashion forward!

At 7:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your hair is great (and i mean that sincerely). Scott used to tell me that you had your punk rock days... are they returning?

Hang in there,

Gwen and August

At 1:26 PM, Blogger Caro said...

Why wash your hair? You've got that whole ultra cool Christopher Walkens thing going on. LOL


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