Of course I have a headache!

Needless to say, it has been an emotional day for me. From being quite content, completely relaxed, unbelievably tired, completely frustrated, quite confused, very irritable, overly anxious and completely at peace.

But isn't that everyday for everyone, especially when you have young kids?

On a good note, I had my PET scan today, and like my earlier scan, it came back clean. Nothing new has popped up. So the only cancer they need to look at and confirm now is in the brain. It's quite possible that the cancer was always there, we just didn't know it. It just started showing its symptoms recently. I'm not sure if that really matters or not now. It is what it is.

We meet with the neurologist tomorrow. I'm eager to get this appointment over with so we know where and how to proceed from here. Not knowing what the hell is going on is what's really affecting me negatively right now. Will I need surgery? Can they even do the surgery? Will they just biopsy it? How will this tumor affect me mentally? Physically? When do I start radiation? What about chemo? Should I go elsewhere for treatment? So much to think about...but nothing I can really deal with until I have this initial appointment.

Thank you to everyone who has sent e-mails, blog comments, phone calls, and given offers of help. I appreciate you all and thank the Lord for placing such amazing people in my life.

I'll continue to update.