Writings of a teachermom, choosing to stay home with her kids, while loathing all domestic responsibilities! In late Aug. 2008, I was diagnosed with Triple Negative breast cancer. After surgery, chemo and radiation, I was given theall clear. However, in the late summer of 2008, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, which metasticized to other areas.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Them apples

This is the third time I'm writing this blog. I just don't want to be so negative. And everytime I wrote this weekend, I found myself being negative.

I think a lot of it has to actually to do with the radiation itself. I think all week it brings me down both physically, emotionally and mentally. It makes me foggy, makes me tired, makes me anxious.
So trying to do something simple like taking the kids to the Apple Orchard...with my mom, and husband doing everything while I just tagged along (even just sitting on a bench while the kids ran all around), can be very frustrating. Because I just don't think it should be so hard. Even last night, my husband and I finally got to go out together, to dinner and a concert. It really did take a lot of effort to stay up so "late" (past 9PM). This kind of stuff frustrates me. Because it's not my "normal" life. And I miss that. We all do.

However, by the time Sunday night came around this week, I finally felt normal. I cooked a real dinner, I gave my kids a bath, and I sat down to enjoy some Desperate Housewives...not fatigued at all.

Radiation starts all over tomorrow...so I'm just going to enjoy my Sunday night shows, while I still can.

Ephes 1: 3-7
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavens, as he chose us in him, before the foundation of the world, to be holy and without blemish before him. In love he destined us for adoption to himself through Jesus Christ, in accord with the favor of his will, for the praise of the glory of his grace that he granted us in the beloved. In him we have redemption by his blood, the forgiveness of transgressions, in accord with the riches of his grace that he lavished upon us. In all wisdom and insight, he has made known to us the mystery of his will in accord with his favor that he set forth in him as a plan for the fullness of times, to sum up all things in Christ, in heaven and on earth. In him we were also chosen, destined in accord with the purpose of the one who accomplishes all things according to the intention of his will, so that we might exist for the praise of his glory, we who first hoped in Christ. In him you also, who have heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and have believed in him, were sealed with the promised holy Spirit, which is the first installment of our inheritance toward redemption as God's possession, to the praise of his glory.

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At 10:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i'll be praying that it goes well.

At 7:59 AM, Blogger Andrea said...

It frustrates me to see and hear that you can't do the things you want to do. It's good to know that Sundays might be your best days so you have something to look forward to knowing your body will feel better. Hang in there. Is the end of the radiation in sight?

At 8:25 AM, Blogger Undomestic said...

The standard radiation they're doing is supposed to end around Oct 22nd.


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