My angel

The day that I prayed I would never see has come. Cari passed away this afternoon. It occured peacefully and comfortably in our home. I want to thank all of you who have followed her blog. You have been a source of comfort and strength for my wife through her long struggle with cancer. She started this blog a few years before her cancer diagnosis simply out of curiosity. It is amazing to see how this has developed into such an important aspect of her life.

I've had her blog entries converted to books dating back to her first one in 2005. Each of our children will receive a set. It is only fitting to close with Cari's last words left for our three beautiful children.

Cari's words:

My dearest Ella. I just want you to know that you are the sweetest little girl in the world. You always bring a smile to my face with your bright eyes. You also have a very giggly laugh that I just love to listen to. You are very funny! Also, you are very determined, and can certainly hold your own when it comes to your brothers. You played laser tag the other day and loved it! I love you so much.

My lovely Max. Just like your brother and sister, I love you so much. Such a sensitive big boy you are. You used to cry because you didn't want to get your hair cut because you didn't want to lose your curls. You always look so handsome with your sweaters and other clothes. I can't wait until you start kindergarten and show everyone how smart you are. And you are always so helpful...especially when it comes to setting the table. I also love how you 're always hugging your sister.

My dear Cameron, you are my first born. Oh how you used to cry. That's because you were a mama's boy. I love you so much. There are several books that I want you to read. They are in the reading room. For when you are old enough to read them. I'm very excited about you getting into the gifted program. You are so smart. You have also been so sweet helping me out when there were things I couldn't reach when I was in my wheelchair. You've also been doing great in track and at football camp.

And for all my kids, be nice to everyone.....especially each other.

This letter was left on her computer for the kids. She wrote it just a few weeks ago. Again, thank you for all of your support and please continue to pray for our family.

Melvin

Busy Week

Can't believe it is over a week since the last posting. I keep going back to edit this as each day is different and doesn't seem to be relevent the time I want to post. I also wanted to post some pictures of the kids first day of school, but haven't figured that out yet so you will only get words this time. Cari had a relatively better week. Meaning she was not sleeping as much as the last week, not in as much pain, however on the other end, very restless and often confused throughout the day and night. Cari asked me today why she is so scared. I was greatful to receive a book from Fairview Home Health Care and Hospice and was able to answer her question. It seemed to satisfy her and calm her down some. Not knowing what each day has in store for you can be frightening. I am just so honored to be able to be by Cari's side each day and hold her hand so she knows she is never alone on this journey. She actually had some visitors this week and was able to converse for short periods of time. Her Dad came for the week end and was pleasantly surprised to see her talking to him when he arrived at 1AM Saturday morning. She was asking for him all week so I guess she wasn't going to miss the opportunity to see him the first chance he arrived.


Like all families it was the first week of school for the Ashford kiddos. Cameron started 3rd grade with the Gateway program at Baily School. Max is now in full time kindergarten and Ella attends preschool 3 half a days a week. Well the saying "it takes a village to raise a child" is so true. The Ashford children are very fortunate to have a very involved Daddy and dedicated Nanny in their lives and neighbors helping to cart to practices and having play times with all that has to be accomplished.

This week we have plans to meet with Hospice and review what services they have to offer.
Please pray that Cari will find more restful moments, especially at night, so all can be refreshed to tend to her needs.

In His Peace!

"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God."
Romans 8:18-19

Weekly Update

Again this week our goal is to make Cari as comfortable as possible. Cari made an emergency visit to the hospital earlier this week as she was having difficulty breathing. Of course they did some tests and then arrived back home early the next morning. She is now on oxygen to help her breathe better and continues on maintenance pain medication. She is having some trouble swallowing pills so we have converted most of her meds to liquid or dissolving tablets or IV infusion. She just dislikes the taste of her meds and makes no qualms about letting us know. My sister in law made me chuckle when she said that Cari tolerated all her surgeries, chemo, radiation, mris etc.without complaint but she just does NOT like the taste of her meds!!!

The kids had a busy week end. Visit to the state fair, birthday party, fire works at Woodbury days and the end of the summer trip to Valley Fair. Also all three children are busy getting ready for school next week. Melvin took Max to his school open house yesterday AM and Cameron had his in the evening. Both got to meet their teachers and become familiar with their classrooms. It's so much fun to see their excitement for school and their excitement for learning. Cari has done a wonderful job preparing them for this school year and passing on her love of learning. Miss Ella will be attending pre-school but still trying to figure out how many days. All this coordinating of bus schedules and activities sure brings back a lot of memories of when Cari and her sister Dana and brother Scott were younger with the same challenges. We sure become more skillful at multi tasking and more organized when confronted with everyone's busy but important schedules. Life sure would be boring and too predictable without children wouldn't it?

Just want to thank everyone again for your supporting comments on the blog, the many meals that are always at our dinner table after the highs and lows of the day, the email/text messages/cards,the flowers to brighten Cari's and the families spirit, the spur of the moment child care needs and the friends and families that are always there offering their kinds words, help and prayers each and every day. The Body of Christ is so present for the Ashford family.