Not looking for a comeback
I had my quarterly appointment with my oncologist this week. Except for my white blood cell count, which for some reason is still low, all my tests came back good. No cancer markers showing.
I should be thankful, thrilled and excited. And thankful I am. But I can't seem to get excited because lately, I keep coming across some articles about cancer reoccurence. To be honest with you, I just assumed that people who had the breast cancer come back weren't aggressive enough in treating it the first time...like they had had a lumpectomy, or they didn't do radiation, etc. So I just assumed that if you do the deluxe treatment...the full mastectomy, chemo and radiation, then all the cancer would be killed, and there'd be no place for it to come back to.
Well, I'm dead wrong. It can come back to other parts of the body, with the triple negative kind of cancer that I have being more aggressive.
Here are a couple things I've read lately causing this concern:
Now, I know that if it comes back, it comes back, and I'm not sure if there's much I can do to stop it. Also, worrying about it coming back will help nothing. But for some reason, I'm getting very anxious...and I'm usually not like this. I actually started thinking about all the different things I've wanted to do/places I've wanted to visit and began planning in my mind how I could start accomplishing them before it's too late.
I know, it's a horrible attitude to have. I really need to remember: “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6-7).